Goodmorning, Understanding This NEW Normal Of Chaos
Goodmorning, Understanding This NEW Normal Of Chaos
You guys, the last few days have been purely insane and it has taken everything in me to keep myself together but I have been able to keep it somewhat together. I'm angry, people are angry and we are all just trying to find our place in this world without dying and feeling safe. I know I am not the only one who feels this way but I truly think America has reached a boiling point that was WAAAAAY overdue and now we have to figure out how we are going to navigate a world post-pandemic and post-racial tensions! I know that that statement in itself is ALOT to take in but this is just our new reality at the moment! At the end of the day, I truly hope this makes everyone wake up and think about how they are treating people because of something as simple as their skin color! That's why when I woke up this morning I felt like I truly needed to deflect and truly create a space where I could relax and unwind physically and mentally!
I know a lot of people feel like we have to walk around in constant anger to feel like we're helping the situation but I truly feel like its ok to take a few hours to yourself to bring some quiet time into your daily routine. I mean think about it, life has been turned upside down since January and no one in the entire world has gotten a single day of rest. I was just telling a friend that I feel like life hasn't been the same since Kobe passed away and I feel like it's so true! It's like as soon as America got over that hill then we entered into the pandemic and THEN when the world started to ease its restrictions we entered the situation that we are in now. Like, I'm exhausted, tired and sad and somedays I just want to crawl under a rock and sleep, except for when I wake up, life will be good and the world will be back on its axis! I guess what I'm trying to say is this, our new normal of chaos may be unwanted but it's here...so how do you deal with this new life?
I for one have decided to NOT start my day with the news! Yup, you heard me right! I feel like the world is constantly on flames and it's not the first thing I want to read in the morning. I like to wake up, grab a little face mask, and grab a nice warm cup of coffee! During this time I like to reflect on my life, the world around me, and of ignore all of my plans for the day! Strangely enough, I feel like that's the only way I can hold on to a little tiny moment of peace for the day. I know the gesture may be small but for now, that's all I got to offer. For the first time in a long time, ya girl doesn't know the answers in life and that's ok. Sometimes life will through you curveballs that you won't know how to navigate but guess what? It's called life...and you either have to be prepared or crawl into a corner and cry...(both are totally acceptable).
For instance, it's currently 2:00am in the morning and I am up writing this blog post. Writing is therapeutic for me so if that means I have to be up at this time of night for a little R&R then so be it. In a matter of a few hours, I am going to be up out the bed and doing the same thing over again BUT at least I am alive, safe, and blessed which is a lot more than what most people can say about their lives at the moment. With that being said, I would encourage you to carve out a teeeeny tpart of your day where it's just about YOU and YOU only. I feel like we need that more than ever now. Anyways, that's enough rambling for the day....share in the comments down below any thoughts you have. Stay safe you guys...
Always Living and Forever Learning,
Sha'Carey Martin